Tuesday, December 19, 2006

who is Dan?

In attempting to tell you about myself, it seems to me that rather than portraying who I am right now, I would actually be telling you who I HAVE been, up to this point. Who I WAS, rather than who I AM.
So then, it seems to me that by telling you about the ways I have acted or beliefs I have held, I am portraying someone that is not me.

Is the person I was in the past really who I am now?

It is more likely that the way I am now is a product of the ways I have been in the past, of my former beliefs and actions. Also though, one would have to question whether I was showing you who I really have been, or was simply showing myself to be the way that I wanted to be, the way that I believed myself to be.

But, wait, is the person we believe ourselves to be what determines, more than anything else, the person who we truly are?

If that is the case, do my constantly evolving beliefs mean that I am constantly changing my entire identity? It would seem that the answer is yes.

With that in mind, how could one argue against the fact that by attempting to tell you about myself, I would only be reinforcing ideals and beliefs about myself that may or may not still hold true.

By recording and concretizing these views I am accentuating them to myself, solidifying and owning them. So now, it seems that in trying to tell you about myself I am doing myself a great disservice, hindering my progression past old beliefs and points of view by holding on to who I used to be and telling myself that that is still who I am right now.

Is trying to tell you about me really worth limiting my future evolution? Conversely, maybe by telling you about what I WANT to be, or how I WANT to see myself, I am enforcing that view of myself and thus aiding my self progression.

In that case though, is the picture I am presenting really a true one? If I tell you I am a rockstar, sure it would help motivate me to become one but at the cost of lying to people? There doesn't seem to be any way to win. I guess you will just have to figure me out for yourself.

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